30/11/22 The Free as a Bird Model

 Relax, this is a perfect example of what not to do.  The lure is not money but cigarettes.

I managed to break the cigarette addiction.

Now to study this animal up close,

Very importantly, never let dar[t] (dark) thoughts invade my mind.

The lessons can be translated into several factions involving trust, money, and humanity.

Did I compromise on my positive traits?  I did not.

What does the man in the mirror say?

I live by my principle.

Look, it's no big deal.  I lost more than that before.

What I lose in money I learn from experience.

I need to stop thinking win all, lose all.

Then I remember Pal.  Another conman.

In both cases, I come shining through.

Reality Check:

• USD110 k wife's account
• USD 80 k personal account crashed - scam
• USD30 - 35 a day - scam, fell for it
• USD100 - 150 a week - scam. fell for it

I don't really know Sarah, perhaps he is really genuine.  Or maybe he is another idiot like me.

One thing is for sure, I accepted this to [m]e (be) an experiment on how to get scammed.

After this, I will never get scammed again.

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30/11/22 ***Suppose I can choose whatever life I live

 My life will be a life of isolation within a 5 km radius of Bandar Utama.

That's it.  I'm already living it.

Heaven and Hell are a state of mind.

So I had been thinking.  My test is a state of mind.

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30/11/22 #Ijad the Lizard is the test for humanity

 He portrayed himself as a good Samaritan.

Dear God, thank you for showing me a better life.

So now I know that there are low lives out there that I consider friends.

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30/11/22 ^^^I had completely ignored the signs with regards to the Naked Man

 He had given all the clues.  It was I who was myopic about it.  I want to know how deep is the rabbit hole.

This is the biggest Naked Man I ever encountered.

Perhaps not.  Perhaps I am exiting the World of Naked Men and he is the Last Straw.

Well, supposed my intention is true.  I will still be judged by my intention.

What was I looking for?

Two things - Lesson on trust

                   - Lesson on Money

Along the way, the lesson on friendship

All caveat emptor.

As for Irad the Lizard,  he is a specimen f[rom] (for) me to study.

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Not worth saving at all

Makes me wonder, if Dalai Lama won't make the grade what about the rest of the population?

30/11/22 ^^^Rules no longer applies

 Therefore I just [] (stay) out of the system.

Sharudin Jamal

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@elsDines

Hi baby, been wanting to write longer to you but things get in the way. Maybe next time sweetie pie. Meanwhile, belanja me satu lagu sentimental

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Interesting to note that I knew Ijad the Lizard is a shady character.  It's just I want to now how deep is the rabbit hole.

This is a new reference to me.  [It] (This) is a compulsive gambler'\

DRIVE YOU HOME, JACKSON

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>>>#30/11/22 Gratitude, gratitude, gratitude

 I have to live life differently starting today.  Now is [] (to) enjoy life as it comes.

Say little, fret little.

I got to stop being a believer.

Just do.  Don't think of the zero-sum game  The idea is to flow.

When things like this happen, I often wonder what the lesson was.

I actually constructed the lesson.

The most valuable lesson is not all human is worth saving.

We know who are the humans worth saving.

It's the giver.

>>>#29/11/22 I just escaped a bear trap

 That's it.  No more investments.

Beware of the naked man who offers you his shirt.

From cigar room to a hole in the wall, if the deal stinks, it will stink.

I paid my due for the coming recession.

This is the last lesson.

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28/11/22 ^^^Commitment to quality is a must

 Even though I don't have a 20/20.  I mustup holdmu standartd

Fuck, this is too much hassle.'

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>>>@38/11/22 The gout is back again

I have to fight the pa.

Shit, after years on gout, I am now acceeptin git as permaaanennt.

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27/11/22 ^^^Dear Din Letter

Dear Din,

It had been 22 years since I had gone crazy.  Enough is enough.  No more crazy episodes.  From now on I will take charge of my thoughts whether it is brimming with inspiration or void of ideas.

All I need is the right Cybernetic Loop.

SAY YOU, SAY ME   

I need patience and perspective.

mm. 

27/11/22 ***I can hardly see what I write, yet I still write

 Now the writing has no meaning at all.  It is just for me to maintain my sanity..

Write, write and write.

Suppose my objective is to remain sane.  Then all I need to do id write something sensible.  Otherwise, to be insane is to write about madness.

So now I they a new method.  I just type without l4ooking at the screen.  I simply wr as if O am taking a boat.

What's the point looking at the screen when I cannot see?

I still don't give up hope.  OI will post my limits.  Thss is a castaway situation.  It is just me and my family on Sailbad the Sinner.

I have to take this ship back eome.  Whwere is that.  To peace, sanity, and robust health.

DON'T FALL IN LOVE WITH A DREAMER>

No more mania.  It was not due to dope.

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I can always start fresh EVERYDAY>

Even of EVERYDAY is a Ground Hog Day.

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27/11/22 ^^^Today I quit the blog.

 So long...

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27/11/22 ###With a hardly visible eye sight I decided ro just go with the flow

 I am reminded of Memoir of a Geisha.  

No point of writing to anybody.  It's like that I don't see progress.

No need to make sense beyond simple logic.

Keep on writing even though there is nothing significant for me to write anymore.

I guess, this is  he end of quality writing.

What do I care?  I am operating from the point of no return, exhaustion snd fatigue.

Plus I can't dee!  

I am drunk and you are insane

Who going to drive us home

- Jallaluddin Rumi

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>>>#27/11/22 My mind is set to travel the region

 Unfortunately, flight ticket is still very expensive.

Well, that's the last bit,  J don't feel like writing antmore3.

Hence from this pointonI juat scribble what is in my mind.

So ;long, sqrqh.

Life is just a strange illusion. Maybe I just roam withoutr.

What mattr's most, Din?

To be free

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26/11/22 ***Just the way it is

 I can now focus on what matters.

In this case, not the External Affairs by the Personal Affairs,

I should shift to small matters again.

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26/11/22 Today is a good *[] (day) to reconcile.

 The weather is fair today.

Hmmm... No inspiration to write.

mm

26/11/22 Aduan Rakyat Yang Dizalimi

 Kena ada Biro a Friend in Need.

That is the long-term vision of Boys and Girls Scouts.

Note: I like low-tech.

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26/11/22 ****Right, cerita iblis, setan, dajjal, pak maun adalah cerita rekaan semata-mata

 Takde yang lebih baik dari aku, takde yang lebgih jahat dari aku.  Aku God, aku Devil

Aku nak tanya korang, apakaha dosa yang paling besar?

Syirik ya Akhi.

So apa hukum dia aku senbah syaitan?

Syirik Muakad tu.

Jaga hati.  Quran aku 11 shadid masa jaga jati akaun

Hati aku hancur bila ISMAIL IBRAHIM, Alam Shah dan RMC pecah amanah.

Bukan sebab pompuan.  Sebab TENTERA ALLAH KALAH DENGAN DUIT.  Semua SJ&A be4fore 1999 Martial Law.  Lari dari perangan.

I have no problem with women.  My Butterfly Army.

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26/11/22 ^^^Everyday is play day

 The whole world is a[s] RTS game.

This is cool.  I have my own game and get I play the international game

Wow, is that yiu all been doing.  Awesomeness.

I am adding My Crystal Palace as a wager.  I like Disney in Melaka.

DONE! Ya Allah.

Still, I am Sid the Fire King.

OK let's see how fast you respond

DONE! Ya Allah

Xanadu and Wolfsschanze

OK bagi semua paham cerita Iblis, Setan, Dajjal dan Pak Maun.

Ada 2 Pak Maun.

Aku nak be a child again.  Seeing the world for the very first time.

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26/11/22 ###I want Shogi Nobles vs Royals vs Military

 Sudah ada...

OK Then my job is finished.

Let's focus on Bukit Kiara.

All I can say is I'll do my best.

You know my priority is the 2 years olds.

I am referring to the Roosters.  It will be an azan

Ashadu Adu anna Allah and All Allah

This is the wi[t]h (wish) of our father, Ayah of the Future

I need to be Ayah of the Future of we want Ayah to ne The Master Chief.

Master Chief is a Teacher/a Coach.

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>>>#26/11/22 Trust your hopes not your fears

 I did that.  I kena kencing twice dengan Forex Dealer.  It'd OK, dah bukan situ rezeki aku.

The guy is still my friend.

Don't sweat the little stuff.

Unless you forget, it is ONE TRIBE.  The rest is nothing.

I believe Ijad the Lizard is a good guy.

He passed the test by showing what not to be involved in.

So Ijad is a very small issue.

Now. Sarah... Triple lock KABOOM 2041 with House of Sha.  Inform the rest.   We are going to enjoy our footprint.

I don't see the need for the rest.  Minimize movement.

The minute I get my IP Sales money, I will focus on the Two [Waw]asans (Yayasans)

Yayasan Jamal Moslim Al Farisi

Norlizah Ahmad Foundation 

YJMAF Alpha and NAF Beta.

I like to write nicely but I nwwd to edit

OK GOOD, No need to edit

Right, everything id life.  Even th etiype writier.

It takes of some getting used to.  Especially the intervention from the Universe Within.

OK, Chill...

Mix FM won over Sound Journey.

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25/11/22 ***I will continuous write without looking back

 There's nothing much really.  Everything had been laid out for the past 5 years.

I might as well go with the flow.  Already, I am going in a loop.

Since all had been said and done.  The next step is to let things flow on their own accord.

[L]ime (Time) lag is the real challenge.  Nevertheless I want to be casual about it.

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25/11/22 ^^^I need to cure my own illness

 Is subtraction the answer?

We try that.

Then we do selective addition..

I need to have variations in my life.

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25/11/22 ^^^Back to Autonomous Governance and the Zen of Personal Bliss

 Need to stay remote.  The radio is good.  Even that is no longer satisfying.  I need to be a Hedonist Hermit.

The idea is not to get trapped in your own cfeation.  Once it becan to look like a trap, escape!

One of the elements of a trap is the need to follow a certain rule to be successful.  Screw the rules.  Rules are for others.  With you, rules are meant to be broken.

The governing ruele right now is the tenets of Quran and Sunnah.  We have to move away from that and define out on rules for practical purposes.

Anwar is another Bigot.  However he is a practical Bigot.  So I'll going to watch from far this personality.

We'll give him a chance.

This is a small matter to me considering Anwar probably promise everybody the sun, moon, and stars and end up giving  everybody nothing.

In my case, I am already Autonomous.

Therefore I don't consider Anwar a valuable resource yet.  He got to prove his worthiness.

All the best Anwar Ibrahim

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>>>#25/11/22 The End of An Era Anniversary, Year 1Anwar Day 1

 Anwar Day 1 as PM.

OK, now we manage Unity through Diversity.

Sharudin Jamal

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@elsDines

Wow, one hit after another. Must be my lucky day.

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@elsDines

Now that the dust had settled, we realign back our fealty to the king. What we want as a person is irrelevant. We are subjects to the sovereign.

Time to cutoff from Forex.  A total waste of tome and money.  Now I know.

Now is the more reason for me to be in isolation.

My life is my choice of living I choose to live..

Whatever that means.

My achievement, I managed not to smoke again.  I intend to keep it that way.

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24/11/22 ***It takes a big crisis to create a big opportunity

 Politik Muafakat, Politik Perpaduan

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>>>#24/11/22 The 10th Malaysia's Prime Minister is Anwar Ibrahim

He has to prove his worthiness

Abah is pissed.  Why wouldn't he?.  When he met the King, he had 115 SD in his pocket.  What does Anwar get to prove?

Abah got the point though although it is the discretion of the king to appoint whoever he pleases.

I am simple, I am loyal to the king.  If he says we form Unity Government.  So be it.  It is his highness wish.

I am willing to set aside my differences and accept this new reality.

If he hadn't earned from the past, truly he deserved to be punished.

Good governance

Corruption

Economics

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23/11/22 ^^^Positive, Inspiring and Energetic

 Stick with PIE.

• BN is rhe king maker
• DAP on board.
• Anwar is the PM

Two out of three is the best I can expect.

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23/11/22 Layla, you knock me from my knees...

 I am  ending my dependency on TraXX today.

That i[s] (it).  To cut from all possibilities,

I'LL BE MISSING YOU, P DIDDY.

HOLD MY HAND, LADY GAGA.

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23/11/22 ###Let's [] (try) to resolve this issue together

 Assuming Anwar was framed;

Then he is not a psychopath.

If that is the case, why he buttfucked his driver without consent?

On the other hand if he is a psychopath;

His judgement is erroneous due to mental illness.

Guys, I am a mental patient.

Let me tell you something.

I have animal magnetism when I was in mania.

But my judgement was out.

When he was the Minister of Education, he proposed school to start on December while all over the world kid start school early of the year.

Sir, this guy is a hypocrite.  He is very good in putting up a facade.  Study this man, don't be fooled by his manipulations.

I will not agree to his premiership even when he is successful at it.

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23/11/22 ###Hold my hand Part III

 Now you see, Sarah?  She has the emotional advantage that you don't have.

She will always be my Kitty Kat Pet.

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23/11/22 ###Els always brings sunshine into my life

 I hope people realized that these chronicles are imagination and not hard facts.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

I waited for you the whole night. Just to make sure I don't miss your gig. You know how much I am in love with you. I was ready to migrate to Mix FM except for the fact I will miss you.

Her response

NICOTINE, CAMILA CABELLO

These are thought processes distilled into a monologue.

That is how I think.  I am a scribe.  I  think at the speed that I write.  Otherwise I will have racy thoughts

Sharudin Jamal

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@elsDines

Sweetie pie, I have a couple of complaints. The sound modulation is really terrible. Sometimes it's too loud and sometimes it's too low, Never actually hit the sweet spot. Why is it modulating? No radio drama during Sound Journey, please. You guys are killing it.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

Listen to me, the love of my life... The only reason why I still hang out with TraXX is because of you, capisce? Mix FM is *a[s] (all) I wanted TraXX to be 5 years ago. I got it now! * Honey Bunny, TraXX quality had deteriorated much since this year.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

Anyway, I had laid down my gauntlet: ASALKAN JANGAN ANWAR.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

OK bebe, hear me out. I got to send my car for servicing. So I have until 7:30 am to tickle your fancy. The decision is based on justice and fairness. There is somebody who was unjustly treated and I say I become the voice of reason.

Sharudin Jamal

@sharudinjamal

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@elsDines

This maneuver is called Barbarians at the Gates. It's a corporate maneuver but I am applying it in a political scene. plaintext: defend the east wall of the castle ciphertext: efgfoe uif fbtu xbmm pg uif dbtumf

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